Another Mom’s Take on the Magic Pill

An interesting look at another mother’s thoughts of “curing” her now adult son with a magic pill…

http://blog.gbrettmiller.com/his-decision-not-mine/

To be honest, I’m glad that we’re not faced with it yet.  I’m not sure what I would do, but if and when the time comes, it would definitely be nice to say, “Ask him!”

Autism. It’s Not For Wimps!

At first, I was wondered if this should be offensive to anyone.  Some hate when living with autism is referred to as being a “burden.”  I don’t much like to think of autism that way either, but the more I threw this around, the more it made me think of how wonderfully brave and unique Ronan is.

Then, I cracked up at it!

It’s true.

Autism.  It’s totally not for wimps!

The Boys of the Day.

This pic isn’t the best quality, but I love how real it is.  Lowie is biting his nails, and Ro is relaxed and just watching.  These are the simple moments that make me pause……..

I’m a lucky Mama.

Lucky.

**THANKS TO THE TRAY FOR LETTING US BORROW THIS…IT IS AN ELABORATION ON MAMA’S USUAL SLAP-DOWN TO WHINING (MY OWN INCLUDED), WHICH CONSISTS OF: AT LEAST I DON’T LIVE IN DARFUR!**

Shameless Hallmark Moment

We went to a Patriot’s Day celebration today, complete with a fantastic parade, delicious food vendors, balloons – the whole works. 

The boys were having a blast, and then we saw this HUGE flag…must take picture.

Of course, Mama forgets her camera, so we only have the phone to snap a memory.  Not the best quality.

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Well, of course the first thing I do is lament the fact that the boys aren’t looking at the camera.  Then, I have to self-deprecate, because it’s just fun. 

Mama looks bald.  Mama looks like a Cabbage Patch Doll.  Can I ever not look like I am going to a funeral? 

Then…I see my hands.  They are resting over both of my boys’ hearts. 

For some reason, this really touches me.  They are so small and vulnerable now, but I am always going to be there. 

With my hands over their hearts.

Even if Mama really do look like a damn Cabbage Patch Doll.

Pre-Music Syndrome

Alright, already!  I can’t stop with these songs!!!  This one reminds me of driving through Malibu Canyon while I was pregnant with The Loudon.  It was in my questioning phase…what could I have done differently?  What can I do different now?  Who’s at fault?  I am to blame.

Hoobastank probably wrote this one about another strung out beyotch, but to me, most songs are about my boys.  lol

I’m not a perfect person
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’m sorry that I hurt you
It’s something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why I need you to hear

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you [x4]

I’m not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’ve found a reason to show
A side of me you didn’t know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Fix You

This song is probably about some junkie girlfriend that Chris Martin was trying to save, but back when I was SO obsessed with “fixing” Ronan, this song would make me bawl in 2 seconds flat.

It started playing on my ipod today, and I cried in 3 seconds flat.  It’s a new record for Mama!

Even though my focus has changed from “fixing” to “making happy”…it’s still raw emotion for me with this tune.

And now, for your PMS pleasure…

Fix You by Coldplay

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And the tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I…

And the tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

p.s.  Doesn’t Chris Martin even look a little like grown Ro?  lol

Here’s Lowie making Ro happy! lol

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